Guest Writer - The Company of Misery 03/05/2010
 ***Damon wanted a Jackass as his picture...he wasn't specific so I picked a local Jackass. I won't take too long with introductions. I'm Damon. I'll be 29 this year and I'm a male with Multiple Sclerosis. I blog over at siiilenttbob.blogspot.com and… well, let's just jump right in to what I feel like talking about. They say that misery loves company and that's totally true. There's something about knowing that someone else is just as knee deep in shit as you are. Seems to me though, when things get tough and we want someone to take some of the load, we look to our loved ones. That's a bit mean, isn't it? Shouldn't we reserve the bad stuff for those we consider enemies? Makes sense though, because hell, they love us! Of course they're gonna help by taking what little burden they can off of our shoulders. Letting it rest on theirs. My question is, are we jerks for asking them to do such things? I guess that's love though, being someone's "company of misery". I just find it so weird that I would want to take the best things in my life and have them active in the worst parts. Not only accept their help, but truly want them to be a part of that world. Some of this stuff can be kinda scary, you know? It can be a hard road, and a personal one at that, so to let someone in and let them see all the weirdness, that's a crazy burden to give, especially to someone you love. I'm not one to let lots of people in, get to the core of me. I don't care to be fully exposed. At the point when I did decide to let someone in though, I chose to let them see something extremely personal. Something that I don't want everyone to see - My injection. The shot can be a big deal to some of us. I know it is to me. So to reveal that side of myself, to be seen piercing myself with a needle, it was kinda crazy. And to see the reaction it got, the tears from seeing me do that...it was tough. I had taken my worst and introduced it to my most favorite person. In the end I think it was the best thing to do, but occasionally I think it was mean to want a loved one to be so active in my fight. Maybe it's not bad at all. More like difficult. Difficult as a hell. If we're gonna live through it though, we might as well have some people there to hold our hands along the way. Fight the fight together. Screw David and Goliath. If instead, it was David along with all of his friends and family, Goliath would have gone down quicker. A lot easier too. Then afterwards, party time! CommentsDanielle Fri, 05 Mar 2010 09:54:05 Damon, I love it! it's very true. Everything you said. Thank you for this. Val Sat, 06 Mar 2010 07:59:21 ok total tangent. but I let my friends and or random family see me do my shot because it's a huge ego boost to be able to prove to them that I can do it and that my life goes on. I made such a big deal and was legitimatly scared of administering it myself for so long.... that now it's a major accomplishment for me. Then again, I'm obscenely self absorbed. way to go guest poster :) Dana Sun, 07 Mar 2010 17:14:57 And then there's me, who is digressing. I believe I will be having a friend administer my shot, at least for the time being, because it's getting sketchier by the week. She's happy, cause it's practice for school/work, so it's a win-win. Dana Sun, 07 Mar 2010 17:16:35 By the way Damon, did I also mention that I think you're the straight poop? All the way brotha... Mon, 08 Mar 2010 14:01:54 Thanks for all the nice words people. I'm always of the opinion that everything I write is crap, so any good opinions always make me smile... Leave a Reply |
